teddy bear is now in heaven with God and the angels as me and my husband weep because we miss him so much. his death was so tragic and happened so fast i fear i will never find peace with in my self as it feels as though i lost my child as me and teddy shared a very special bond with each other. what hurts the most is that today is his 2nd birthday :''( i had all his gifts ready and i was going to make today very special and at the end of the day i was going to make him a cake.

 

he died on Tuesday night and in a way i blame my self for what has happened because i made the decision to go out that night. right before we left we played tug of war for a bit and then played chase so he would be tired for that after noon. he had already has walk that day and i am at least thankful my husband was there so we all had one last walk together :'( right before i left i looked in his eyes and told him to be a good boy, i never knew that would be the last time i would ever look into his beautiful eyes again.

 

when we came home he didnt greet me at the door as he usually does. my heart sunk. he had gotten into the trash and got a corn dog bag over his head. his body was already stiff and he was so cold. his tongue was purple and the whites of his eyes were red and wide with panic. me and my husband cried while holding his little body asking God "why" as he was the most loving dog u would ever meet. so sweet and gentle. we called a friend to drive us to my work as they have a freezer for cremating dogs. it was the last place in the world i wanted to take him but i didnt know what else to do. at the clinc me and my husband held his body telling him what a great friend he was and that he was the best corgi anyone could ever ask for. we said are last good byes and petted him for the last time.  the house just feels so empty now, i dont ever want to get up in the mornings now because he would always greet me with a waging nub and kisses just because his mama, me, was up.

 

i am thankful for the time God gave me with him as he truly was a blessing. i love him with all my heart and soul and its just so hard to think he died like that i couldnt be there for him :''( we had so many great memories together such as when we took our first walk together, teaching him his first trick, taking him home to see my family, and this year he learned how to swim. the bond we had was so deep i swear i could read his mind. i always knew how he was feeling. i would have taken a bullet for this dog if i had to i love him so much. he was always so trusting of me and knew i would take good care of him no matter what. i made sure he was on the best food, always had a variety of foods on his kibble, i brushed his teeth, every Sunday he got groomed and i ALWAYS made sure he got his walks and if it had rained the day before and i couldnt walk him i would take him to the field so he could run. he would chase that ball or stick and he would fly across the field and theres nothing in the world i loved more than making him happy. i always wanted to be sure he was comfortable so i used harnesses instead of collars.

 

he loved people and children so much that he always welcomed them and wanted to say hello. he was always so gentle to little children. if they wanted to pet him he would lay on his side and wait patiently until they were done. he was to most gentle and friendly dog i have ever known.

 

Teddy, me and papa miss u SO much that we cant even express it. when i get your ashes back they will always be in the family room and i will be sure to pray to ask how u are doing. i know u are in even greater hands but the pain in my heart still hurts. u were such a wonderful friend. if i was ever sad or sick u wouldnt leave my side for even a second because u wanted to be sure i was ok. i will really miss our cuddles on the couch in the after noons and how u would get so excited when i asked if u wanted "noms" or a treat and u would jump at my face and lick me. i will miss our afternoon walks as i know u enjoyed those. i will miss taking u to the field so u can chase that stick, theres nothing like watching a happy corgi fly across the field and running back with a happy look in your eyes. i will miss u always bringing us your rope toys to play with because u loved tug-or-war so much. i will miss u greeting me at the door, seeing u after a long day at work made everything better. i will miss u greeting me in the morning with your kisses to get me up.i loved looking into those beautiful eyes he had. dark blue in the middle and then they were light blue on the edges.

u were my best friend and if i could have one wish it would be that u could be here again. we love you so much little buddy. i will see u one day at the rainbow bridge

 the petco pictures i posted about are the last photos i have of him. those were taken on sunday. please, i beg u, dont leave bags on the floor and when u throw them away cut them open to prevent this from happening to u.

 

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thank you Jennifer,

your post along with the others really does help knowing that u are all there to support us in this difficult time.  i just hope that he is up there having a great time playing with the other dogs enjoying his "noms"

No need to hope, Rebecca....he is.

This is heartbreaking news :( I am so very sorry for the loss to your family... I feel at a loss for words since I know there is nothing I can say that will take away the pain, but your family and Teddy are in my thoughts and prayers <3 My deepest condolences.

thank you so much, u being there for us helps alot :')

Rebecca, I am so sorry for your loss... I hope you and your husband find comfort in each other during this time. Thank you for opening your heart and sharing, I know it was so difficult to write all that out, but it will really help future owners. Thank you for your sharing to put bags away and cut them open for our babies' safety. I will definitely be doing that... 

thank u,

and your welcome as i would never want this to happen to anyone

My heart breaks for you.  My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.  I know too well the feeling of loss, having loss my first two corgi's to "freak accidents".  And that is what this was.  Please do not blame yourselves.  You where good and loving parents to Teddy.  Keeping you all in my prayers.

thank you,

i am also sorry for your losses. im sure they are up there with teddy playing together :')

I am sooooo sorry for you :'( My heart is breaking for you and Im sitting here crying for the loss of your sweet sweet lil Teddy :'( He will always be with you. Rest in Peace lil Teddy.

thank you so much,

it truly means a lot

Oh so sorry for your loss!  I can't even begin to imagine your pain as I sit here with tears streaming down my face.  As others have said I hope that some day Teddy leads you to another child to love and care for.  Never a replacement of course but someone to help you move on. 

 

thank you,

i hope one day to open our home to another corgi when the time is right. i cant imagine life without them

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