my boyfriend of 6 year's name was matt.

my little bear just knows him as daddy.

we broke up this january from being together since december 2001. he's still cool by me though, no hard feelings.

to be honest (i can't believe i'm saying this on the CORGI website, haha!) i've never liked corgis (till i got mine). the reason for this was cause matty had a corgi named gizmo. gizzy was an integral part of his family's life, and adored by all. he and i always got along, especially these last few years one he got pretty firmly attached to me. matty's family is my family, and gizmo was always a part of it.

the reason i never liked corgis was cause of gizmo. he seemed like the most (and i feel awful for saying this) pointless dog on the face of the planet. he was always sick, WAAAAAAAAAY overweight, and just boring. didn't really move, and just sort of existed for food.

but that just proves you have to get into the heart of a corgi to know them. gizzy had a great heart, and lucky enough for me, i figured that out the last 3 years we had him. he would jump up and sit by me and want to be loved on all the time, and... oh he was so funny, he would get his bone and "bury" it in the couch... that means he would stuff it WAY down in the couch cushions and scratch at them to bury it.

do any of your corgis do this?

gizmo also loved to jump over the barstools when we would lay them sideways. he couldn't do this for the last couple years but it was adorable when he was able to. he knew a lot of tricks, most of which were passed onto his hungry doppelganger (bear) by his daddy. (meaning we taught bear most of the tricks that gizzy could do). we would also say "GO GET HIM!!!" and point, and gizmo would go "attack" (run up and bark and be a big man) at whomever we pointed at. little bear just loves on everyone. but bear learned a bunch of SWEET tricks gizmo couldn't do (tell bear to give you "kisses" and he'll attack you with love).

i know i'm going off here, but gizmo was awesome, and i see a part of him in little bear.

gizmo passed away two weeks ago. he was 15 (matty swears he was only 12 but come on... i'm a chick, i remember these things lol).

his parents always swore they'd never get another dog, but i can tell this has taken a toll on them. especially jack (his dad). they were buddies. amigos. compadres. and now jack feels all alone. give happy corgi butt wiggles out to them and keep them in your prayers.

that being said, little bear is jumping up on me and giving me kisses. and being snuggly like he's never been. gizmo always was but bear is more of a teenager haha! one of those..... "MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!! don't kiss me anymore, its embarassing!" is what it reminds me of.

gizmo meant a lot to me just like his family did. i guess a part of this is me realizing that a little bit of the past is gone, and gizzy has gone with it. matty and i won't ever be together again (which is welcome with open arms) but it is more of the end of an era and the start of a new chapter i couldn't do without my little bear.

matty and i have been together since i was 15. i'm 22 now and going to college (aside from the community college i went to). i'm moving an hour away from my parents, my brothers, and all my friends. little bear is coming with me and will be there for me in my new life. i would not be as strong today as i am without him. i love him for being there for me forever and always. you should see him snuggled up in my lap, smiling at me. i think he's ready, too.

p.s. i have never gotten this many little bear kisses, lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they truly are brilliant, aren't they?

or maybe its cause we're watching "return of the jedi" and he can feel my inner sadness via use of the force...