Saying Good-bye to Rudy
Hi everyone. I have some sad news to share. We had to have Rudy euthanized.
Lately, he's taken to attacking us (me in particular) and the other dogs. We knew when we took him into our home that he had some very real problems with aggression. And we had high, high hopes we could help him to find a more peaceful life. But...
In the past two weeks, he's been viciously aggressive. He's bitten me twice before. But on Thursday, some switch went off in his brain. I really don't know what triggered it. We can speculate til we're blue, but truthfully we'll never know. However, this time I simply moved my chair in the office and he lunged at me, tearing my shirt from the underarm. Thankfully, he did not get ahold of me there. But as the shirt tore, he grabbed my left hand and arm, slicing through my middle finger. I didn't fight him, knowing that trying to free my hand would make the damage worse. He snarled and growled and attacked over and over. I just prayed it would end. Once he slid off my hand, he went after my stomach, landing a puncture wound on my hip. Then he lunged at my legs, tearing a good slice of my left thigh. I just couldn't back him off. He was lunging and moving toward me trying to back me against the wall of the office. I hate to admit to fighting my way out, but that is what I had to do. I finally got away, but not until great injury was done...me to my body and him to his soul. And after tasting that amount of blood, he wasn't ending his stalking.
I called Patti (CorgiMom) at work and told her to come home. She arrived 30 minutes later to find me dazed and bleeding. My doctor saw me shortly afterward. He was required, because of the severity of the attack, to provide a dog-bite report to the Board of Health. And, as our law is very specific about what happens to a bite dog, we had the choice of quarantine or euthanasia. Rudy never could have handled quarantine and would have come away a much more aggressive dog. We had to make the difficult choice to put him down. The hardest part is knowing that immediately upon death, they hacksaw his head off for post-mortem. And our usually sympathetic vet seemed very UNsympathetic, ordering us out of the exam room and taking him to the back for euthanasia and "the procedure." I so much wanted to hug him...just once. He was never approachable. I never felt the joy of his fur against my face. And both of us wanted that before he was taken away, but we were robbed of it. It made the loss that much more horrific.
I cannot begin to tell you how devastated we both are. We went into this rescue with the very best of intentions. Goddess knows we tried everything we could. He was a beautiful dog. And he could have had a beautiful heart. But someone somewhere beat the living daylights out of this animal. Someone somewhere should be ashamed at what they did. You could tell Rudy wanted to be happy and wanted to not be angry and fearful. But he just couldn't get beyond what had been done to him.
Now his restless soul is at peace, dancing and laughing on the other side of the Bridge. He is enjoying freedom of spirit for the first time since he was a little bitty pup. We are trying to comfort ourselves and the rest of our pack with that thought, but are often coming up empty and in deep, heartfelt pain. Our anger at his previous owners is tempered by our tears and our hope that now he is at peace.
I pray he's playing fetch with Goddess and making the angels and fairies laugh with delight. He loved a good game of fetch the ball. Sometimes I think it was his only time of real joy. He deserves every special pet on the head he gets now. And I hope when he re-enters this life, we are blessed with the opportunity to again have his spirit in our home.
We ask your prayers as we deal with this loss, for it is very, very great and we are broken hearted.
Cindi & Patti
Lately, he's taken to attacking us (me in particular) and the other dogs. We knew when we took him into our home that he had some very real problems with aggression. And we had high, high hopes we could help him to find a more peaceful life. But...
In the past two weeks, he's been viciously aggressive. He's bitten me twice before. But on Thursday, some switch went off in his brain. I really don't know what triggered it. We can speculate til we're blue, but truthfully we'll never know. However, this time I simply moved my chair in the office and he lunged at me, tearing my shirt from the underarm. Thankfully, he did not get ahold of me there. But as the shirt tore, he grabbed my left hand and arm, slicing through my middle finger. I didn't fight him, knowing that trying to free my hand would make the damage worse. He snarled and growled and attacked over and over. I just prayed it would end. Once he slid off my hand, he went after my stomach, landing a puncture wound on my hip. Then he lunged at my legs, tearing a good slice of my left thigh. I just couldn't back him off. He was lunging and moving toward me trying to back me against the wall of the office. I hate to admit to fighting my way out, but that is what I had to do. I finally got away, but not until great injury was done...me to my body and him to his soul. And after tasting that amount of blood, he wasn't ending his stalking.
I called Patti (CorgiMom) at work and told her to come home. She arrived 30 minutes later to find me dazed and bleeding. My doctor saw me shortly afterward. He was required, because of the severity of the attack, to provide a dog-bite report to the Board of Health. And, as our law is very specific about what happens to a bite dog, we had the choice of quarantine or euthanasia. Rudy never could have handled quarantine and would have come away a much more aggressive dog. We had to make the difficult choice to put him down. The hardest part is knowing that immediately upon death, they hacksaw his head off for post-mortem. And our usually sympathetic vet seemed very UNsympathetic, ordering us out of the exam room and taking him to the back for euthanasia and "the procedure." I so much wanted to hug him...just once. He was never approachable. I never felt the joy of his fur against my face. And both of us wanted that before he was taken away, but we were robbed of it. It made the loss that much more horrific.
I cannot begin to tell you how devastated we both are. We went into this rescue with the very best of intentions. Goddess knows we tried everything we could. He was a beautiful dog. And he could have had a beautiful heart. But someone somewhere beat the living daylights out of this animal. Someone somewhere should be ashamed at what they did. You could tell Rudy wanted to be happy and wanted to not be angry and fearful. But he just couldn't get beyond what had been done to him.
Now his restless soul is at peace, dancing and laughing on the other side of the Bridge. He is enjoying freedom of spirit for the first time since he was a little bitty pup. We are trying to comfort ourselves and the rest of our pack with that thought, but are often coming up empty and in deep, heartfelt pain. Our anger at his previous owners is tempered by our tears and our hope that now he is at peace.
I pray he's playing fetch with Goddess and making the angels and fairies laugh with delight. He loved a good game of fetch the ball. Sometimes I think it was his only time of real joy. He deserves every special pet on the head he gets now. And I hope when he re-enters this life, we are blessed with the opportunity to again have his spirit in our home.
We ask your prayers as we deal with this loss, for it is very, very great and we are broken hearted.
Cindi & Patti
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Comment by Cindi on August 16, 2008 at 7:54am
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Natalie, thank you. We appreciate your thoughts and prayers.
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Sylvia and Timmy, Goddess bless for your kind and thoughtful contribution to Corgi Aid in memory of our precious Rudy. You have touched our hearts deeply.
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Comment by Natalie, Lance &Tucker on August 15, 2008 at 11:27pm
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CIndi, I am so sorry to hear about this horrible tragedy. Thank You for trying your best to help Rudy. Please accept my condolences. I hope you feel better soon.
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Comment by Sylvia & Timmy on August 15, 2008 at 10:57pm
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I made the donation to Corgi Aid in memory of Rudy. I'm sure he knows of all the good they do for corgis like him who needed that extra help to find a special home. Rest easy and "that'll do Rudy, that'll do".
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Carmen, Shane and Kristen...thank you so much. I cannot express how comforting it is to hear from all on this site. We knew if we reached out here, many would feel and understand our hurt. Bless you.
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Comment by Kristen on August 15, 2008 at 5:18pm
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Patti and Cindi, I cried when I read your story. I know where your heart is and that you wanted only the best for him. Sometimes we can't heal what is broken no matter how hard we try. You provided an opportunity that would not otherwise been available. God Bless all of you. You are in my prayers. You are an inspiration for all that you do and I'm so sorry for what you are going through.
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Comment by Carmen on August 15, 2008 at 5:16pm
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I would like to send my condolences too. What a hard decision to make, but I believe he is now in a better place without the torments of this life. I hope that he can return to the world to a better life. I believe that all souls return to the world.
Our thoughts are with you.
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FuzzyButt, thank you. It's funny how, when we let go, these precious souls return to our lives. I've seen it with a couple of our cats, who returned to us in the form of other cats. There is a recognition of the energy and soul of the one who passed. We pray that Rudy returns to this sphere and has a life of joy that makes up for his recent one. Thank you for your kind thoughts.
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Comment by FuzzyButt on August 15, 2008 at 4:31pm
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*hugs both of you* Take heart in knowing that some day you will see him again. On that day it will be you playing fetch with him and holding him close.
You saved him. He had more joy and happiness with the two of you, which was the best thing he could have asked for. Rudy will repay your love and kindness tenfold in the next life.
I am terribly sorry for the pain and sadness that you are going through now. I cannot imagine the horror of it all especially the loss without closure. Slowly the pain will ease and you will move on. Given you will never forget that beautiful soul that came into your life. Rudy is watching over you, and is with you even now.
I wish you all the gods' blessings.
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Oh my goodness, we are honored! I cannot say how much that would mean to us.
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