I didn't get to say goodbye!

It has been a year since I told the Vet it was time! This was suppose to be the toughest decision I would have to make but it wasn't. I knew that it was the right thing to do! Rugby my oldest had been sick for over a week and after two transfusions his blood levels kept dropping and I knew in my heart that he wasn't going to get better. What breaks my heart to this day is the fact I didn't get to tell him Good Bye! Right before Rugby got sick we were suppose to visit my daughter in Erie, Penn. Days before our departure date was when Rugby got sick. I ask the Vet what he thought we should do, stay or go, and he thought he was going to get better and that we should go. (By the way I live in South Florida). Well he didn't! After three days of constant phone calls back and forth. I knew what needed to be done and I told the Vet that if was time. Even a year later I still regret not getting a chance to be with him at the end and to give him one last hug and tell him good bye!

I miss you Rugby!!!

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Comment by John Wolff on October 28, 2012 at 6:39pm: Aw, so sad. I hope I can be with Gwynn and Al when they go.

Rugby will not want you to be sad.

Comment by Melissa and Franklin! on October 28, 2012 at 3:55pm: I had a similar experience with my German Shepherd. I was in New York and she was in California when she collapsed and they found a hemangiosarcoma, 3 days later we had to put her to sleep. It was such a difficult decision and I was devestated that I couldn't be there with her. Working now as a technician I feel better about my decision. We don't take it lightly when we have to send a patient over the bridge, so just know even though you weren't there with him, he was surrounded by people who loved him while they cared for him and I can promise you he had a tech and the doctor hugging him, petting him, and probably also crying for him at the end. When mom and dad can't be there at the end we make darn sure they know how much they are loved and cared for.

Comment by Bev Levy on October 28, 2012 at 1:14pm: It is awful whether you are there or not...they leave such a big hole. He knew you loved him!

Comment by Lemmy Winks on October 28, 2012 at 1:05pm: :( I know how you feel. When I was 16, our Family dog, Allie, a sheltie was 12 and arthritis was setting in, her kidneys and bladder were giving out and she was going blind. My mom knew how much I loved her and left the call to me. I didn't want her to suffer anymore. She acted fairly normal personality wise, but you could still tell. So I made the call to have her put down. The vet convinced me that being in the room when they did it would make it harder for me to say goodbye, to this day I regret it, 8 years later; I even cry sometimes thinking about it.
I promised myself no matter what, I will be there for Lemmy and Pilot.