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Comment by Gail and Ashton on September 17, 2011 at 11:49pm

I've tried writing this posting several times now but find it difficult to put into words what I am trying to covey. If you can take anything away from my post, let it be that my thoughts and prayers are with you and that you are not alone.

 

It's been several years now since I lost my sweet little boy Heston to cancer but I still shed tears for him even now. I work in vet med and I was there every step of the way, even assisting in the surgery suite for his exploratory surgery. I was hoping he just had just one big ol' ugly tumor which was causing the bleeding into his abdomen, these I've seen tons of times before and you take it out, the dog goes on to live a long and happy life. Unfortunately for us, he had tons of tumors everywhere. We took out his spleen which was the main cause of his bleeding and was told we would have maybe 1, 2 months at the best. Those last two months I know he stayed for me. I would cry and Heston would comfort me. Not the other way around. I would beat myself up over not knowing he was sick sooner. Why didn't he let me know he didn't feel good? Why did I spend all that time/money on college to work as a vet tech if I couldn't even take care of my own dog?! Why did such a sweet and loving dog get such an aggressive and ugly cancer? Why?! It just wasn't fair.

 

They say time heals all wounds but the loss of a very special pup is one that hurts for a very long time. It's also one that not everyone understands. "It's just a dog", means they just don't get it. Cry when you must but smile and laugh at all the wonderful happy times which far out weigh the sadness of their departing. I have noticed in my case that I can now concentrate on all the funny and happy times. Even when he was a pup and decided the tv remotes ($100+) were much better chew toys than his actual toys. May pairs of shoes lost a mate to Heston. He was a chewer. Heck, he chewed a hole in the middle of the kitchen wall!! I can look back at these memories and laugh. No matter what he was my little boy and I was truly blessed to be one who got to be his mom. My husband and I are now looking at our old shep/chow mix as he closes in on 15. Things are becoming difficult for him and it may be time for us to face that tough decision once again. It never gets any easier, but it is one we do because we love him. Despite all the pain it causes, It really is our final loving act to such a faithful friend.

 

Janice, please remember that you too are blessed. You got to share a wonderful life with Kinsey. One filled with many, many happy memories and lots of love. Hold on to those as you work though this difficult time. I know my Heston was there on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge welcoming Kinsey.

Comment by Gromit, Sparkle, and Doug on September 17, 2011 at 11:33pm

Janice, I'm so sorry to read that you've lost your sweet Kinsey.  Losing a beloved Corgi pal is something many of us here are sadly familiar with, we do understand what you are feeling.  Corgi hugs and sympathy from down here in Arizona.

Comment by Jane Christensen on September 17, 2011 at 11:16pm

So sorry...it's such a hard decision but it was what was right for her...you made the decision out of love. I still have a few picks of Bella #1 around with her collar on one and I look at it and smile...it was almost 8 years ago...those heart dogs are always with us even if not physically. Sending prayers and special thoughts your way....RIP Dear Kinsey...you will be reunited someday.

Comment by Ellen Andersen on September 17, 2011 at 10:59pm

Janice, I'm so very very sorry for the loss of Kinsey.  She was a beautiful girl.  I'm afraid I don't have a similar experience to share with you...I haven't yet had to make the awful decision you had to make.  Kinsey knows you love her and that you did what was best for her.

Comment by Natalie, Lance &Tucker on September 17, 2011 at 10:48pm

I am so sorry, what a painful decision that had to be.  Prayers coming your way to help you through this very difficult time in your life.  :(

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