as i type ah jai is sleeping next to me, breathing gently in and out, totally undisturbed by the turbulence caused by the flickering of my fingers. he sleeps so peacefully, so comfortably, and so full of trust, that it's as if nothing is ever going to harm him as he shut down all his senses to the outside world, because i'm here with him.
and i'm suddenly struck by a thought that has never struck me before, not even when my ex moved in with me a few years ago -
i've always lived for myself, and only myself. but now, i have one more soul in me. and of anything that's gonna happen in my life, ah jai will be a part.