Link passed away : (

Sitting at home alone right now, and thought this maybe the best place to vent,

 

I adopted Link from a kill shelter on 7/7/11, He quickly had a place in my heart. I had never met a dog like him, so well mannered, just wanted to be loved at all times. 2 weeks after having him he began vomiting, and vomiting and vomiting. I took him to the vet they thought he had an upset stomach that had caused ulceration. So we got medication, He started feeling better so they told us to keep him on the medication, a few days later it started again. So we took him in to do xrays, 5 people said he had an obstruction, and that they would have to have surgery. I was sad but happy at the same time, i knew he was going to be better after the surgery. After surgery, he was a completely different dog, he was so happy, so we went back to the normal life of having a dog. 1 week after surgery everything went down hill again, We were going to the vet, every other day. Link was unable to eat or drink, then it go to the point where he was vomiting all of his medication up. They vet taught me how to give him shots, I was giving him 6 shots a day. He wasn't getting better They told me they needed to run some test on him, which would of been over $2000. I had just spent almost $1800 on Link, and he continued to suffer. Sat 8/13 I came home, to find him hiding in the back of a closet, not wanting to move and whining. I called the vet, and I decided we needed to put him down. I hated seeing him suffer, i hated i had to give him so many shots, when I was at work, It got to the point i didn't want to come home, i didn't want to see him hurting. I felt so helpless, i was doing everything i could do for him, I put my self in a financial situation I didn't have enough money to even eat for a few days.

I know I only had him for 5 weeks, but he was my little man and I loved him more than anything. He was everything to me, even when he was in pain, when he saw me he struggled to be excited, but he would try his hardest.

When we took him in on Sat, it was the first time he wasn't a nervous wreck at the vet. My Vet took him back to give him pain meds, and he looked so happy because he wasn't hurting anymore. Link laid in my lap, and he little ears were up, and he just kept looking at me and poking his nose on my face and then licking my tears.I just smiled at him and talked to him, it was awesome seeing him pain free. Finally the vet came back in and we placed him on the table,Link stared into my eyes until he was gone.

Its be so hard, I feel good about my decision, it was the best thing i could do for him. I hate that he isn't here with me,  I hate being home, I could always here him following me from room to room. He isn't at the window anymore when i leave, he isn't laying at my feet when im getting ready for work, or snuggling with me on the couch when i had a bad day at work. I felt guilty at first, i felt like maybe i didn't try hard enough, but emotionally i didn't know how much pain i could keep putting him in.

I have been trying to think positive, I am glad we adopted him, if someone else did who knows if they would of spent as much and gave as much love as I did, knowing he people who loved him so so much, I know he had a better life with me and my boyfriend than he did before.

I keep thinking this was meant to happen, Maybe it was Gods plan. Link was sick before I adopted him. Maybe God wanted to give Link more time, and he wanted him to have a chance at have a loving family so he could die knowing what love was. I just wish he could of had many more years with me. 

I want to adopt another dog soon probably another corgi rescue. I know it wont replace Link, but i feel like I gave Link the best life, and I feel like he would want me to take another dog in and give the a chance at a wonderful life  full of love like Link had.

Link was my first dog I had adopted since I lost my dog to cancer as a child.

If anyone had any advice for me, i would really appreciate it.

 

Thanks, 

Ashley

 

Link will always have a place in my heart and will always be remembered.

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Comment by Nancy Bauer on August 15, 2011 at 7:38pm
Bless you Ashley for giving Link the love he deserved before you let him go to the Bridge.  I just let my Emma go a couple weeks ago and understand how hard it is.  My heart breaks for you, may you find peace knowing Link is feeling well and running and playing, maybe with my Emma!  I hope you find another little soul to help you thru your grief.  Our prayers!  Nancy, Katie, Jack and Angel Emma
Comment by Elyse & Caese on August 15, 2011 at 7:19pm
That just brought me to tears. He was so lucky to have someone like you on his side and to give him a great home and feel wanted before he went down hill. It's great that Link held on long enough to find you and have someone by his side til the end. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Comment by mia, herky, & kim on August 15, 2011 at 6:04pm
I am so sorry.  I write this with tears in my eyes for what you are going thru. I too, have had to make the decision and it was sooo difficult.  Yes, we know they are in pain and it is no quality of life, but the selfish part of us says we want them with us always! It will get better, and you know you did the right thing for Link. He will always have a special place in your heart, just like my Arnie, but knowing the love you showed him, up to the end, will help. My thoughts and prayers are with you....
Comment by Joanna, Rainy and Calvin on August 15, 2011 at 5:58pm
It took me a while to come to terms that I did the right thing in putty my Algy to sleep when his cancer became too much.  I think a lot of us can understand your decision and feelings, and it is my feeling that you did right by Link too.  It is and will be hard, but it will get better and soon his memory will bring more smiles than tears.  I am sure Link was very happy to have you with  him, and knows that there is, somewhere, another little one out there that needs you.  Sending much love and corgi kisses.
Comment by Jane Christensen on August 15, 2011 at 5:45pm

So sorry about Link....I know how you are feeling and would have suggested the pics and collar that you already have. I lost a beloved dog several years ago and still have her pic and collar in a place that I walk by and see it.  Over the years I always waited awhile until I losr my Bella 1 and  at that time I decided that it would be ok to get one sooner rather than later...it was a great decision for me as it was Wynn my 1st Corgi:)

So glad you were there for him at the end to help him leave this world...I always do this and their is a "peace" in not seeing them suffer.

Comment by Teresa Gilpin on August 15, 2011 at 5:15pm
I am so, so sorry that you and Link had to go through this.  But, you went through it together, and you did all you could do.  I think you made the right decision.  You may have only been with him for a short time, but you were there when he needed you most!!!  Hugs to you!!
Comment by Mark Sleith on August 15, 2011 at 4:30pm
I'm so sorry to hear about Link - he was a very fortunate dog to have been in such a caring environment, if even for a short time.  He knows you did everything you could and more.
Comment by John Wolff on August 15, 2011 at 4:17pm
Sounds like he knew how to find the right person at the right time.  By and by, maybe somebody else will, too.
Comment by Rebecca Marie O'Bryan on August 15, 2011 at 3:51pm
i am so sorry for your loss:( it has touched me very much. u did all that u could for poor link so please dont blame your self. the last few weeks im sure he was just happy to be with a kind hearted person such as your self

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