Well today would have been my sweethearts 5th birthday.I used to buy both of my as I called them My boys (my Corgis) a special treat. I did not want the other to feel left out so on each one of their birthdays both got a treat. Instead today I will not be doing that I will attending my first Pet Loss Group meeting at 7pm. I wish that I could stop crying long enough to just finish this but it just is not that easy.I do not know why I am so sad. I feel like I failed him. I spent over 1000.00 trying to save his life, The vet did all kinds of tests and found nothing but a low blood count, some sort of anemia . It was a shock that Kazi did not make it. Even the vet said on Thursday that Kazi was not out of the woods BUT he is heading in the right direction.Then on Monday morning at 7:30 am he passed away ! My daughter was taking him to the vet because I had taken off so much time from work the whole week before. We would drop Kazi off at 7:30 when the vet opened and they were monitoring him and do tests and then after work I would pick him up BUT on Monday morning my daughter called me at work screaming Mom Mom, Kazi is dying, she was driving. I was in shock and ran out off work and fell. I guess I was in shock so bad that I did not realize that I was hurt, When I got to the vet he already died. They 'let me spend an hour with him until my husband got there to say our last good byes. (Which was VERY hard) Later on that day finally I had so much pain in my left knee I could not walk from the fall. Long story short I was on crutches and I am still waiting for the MRI results. I could not even try to keep busy to take my mind off losing my baby because I could not walk. I wish I could just go back one month but I can't !!!!!

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Comment by Joanna, Rainy and Calvin on December 17, 2010 at 4:09pm

I came across this blog post today and it really made me cry.  I understand what you went through back in May because this past week would have been Algy's birthday.  He was diagnosed with Immune Mediated Thrombocytopenia when he was about 6, which is kinda like the 'sister' disease of what poor Angel Kazi came down with.  It's the lesser of the two evils and we found a vet who was able to diagnose it in time to save his life.  He died back in March of lymphoma, but for those 5 years it was constant blood tests and vet visits and lots and lots of drugs.  With the hemolytic anemia, it hits fast, and usually is hard to pinpoint.  Please don't feel that you failed Kazi - you didn't because you loved him.  I hope that since some time has passed, that his memories bring more smiles than tears, although I understand the tears because I still cry for Algy.  Many hugs from us to you.

Comment by ♥ Kobi, Angel Kazi & Kiya♥ on November 2, 2010 at 7:25pm
It has been 6 months and I still cry. The bond we have with our babies is unreal, I have a new puppy who has made me smile. It has helped some BUT I still miss my Kazi more than anything in the world. :(
Comment by Priscilla, CARLY, and Frankie on November 2, 2010 at 7:16pm
i am bawling reading your post, i seriously understand .. maybe its my attachment to my 9 month old corgi is making me feel your pain.. i have never had a dog i love as much as i do this Carly , what is it about these pups?
Comment by Virginia Desouky on May 14, 2010 at 1:47pm
I'm very sorry to hear about Kazi. It's so difficult to say goodbye, even worse when it comes as a shock. It's good that you're going to the Pet Loss Group--I bet you will find a lot of support and help there. Our babies will always be with us, in our hearts. Take care.
Virginia
Comment by Darlene Hennessy on May 11, 2010 at 8:43pm
I know this is sooo hard. I too have been there. It is such a gut wrenching pain, and it hurts so bad. Sometimes it doesn't seem real.. but then it hits you again that it is real, and you just want it to go away and go back in time. For months I slept with Otto's ball, a lock if his hair, and his collar. In time the pain will ease, until then be sure to take care of yourself. The Pet Loss group... they can be a great help for you, as well as all of us here at mycorgi. My heart goes out to you.
Comment by Jill Usher on May 11, 2010 at 9:31am
Your post made me cry this morning, too. It's horrible, just horrible. Especially not knowing what happened to him. Please take care of yourself...especially that knee but I'm glad to hear you are going to the Pet Loss Group meeting tonight. I didn't even now they existed.
Take care and please reach out to all of us because we are here for you.

Jill
Comment by Bev Levy on May 11, 2010 at 7:37am
I have always felt great regret at the loss of my beloved furry friends. For not being there, for being there, for not being able to do more etc. I can only say that there is no good way to lose them. In time you will feel better and be able to focus on the good times but for now I am so sorry for your loss.
Comment by Geri & Sidney on May 11, 2010 at 3:05am
Your post made me cry; I'm so sad for you. These little guys get into our hearts, it's incredible how much we love them. I think I would have reacted the same way you did. I'm sure little Kazi knew how much you cherished him. I hope your heart will heal and your knee also.
Comment by Natalie, Lance &Tucker on May 11, 2010 at 2:04am
As I read your blog, I felt as though i was right there with you, Im so sorry. Im very sad for your loss. Its so hard when someone you love passes away, its never easy. All death is hard but, even harder when so unexpected at such a young age. We all love our corgis with all our hearts, we will be here for you. Lance will be 5 in October and just doesnt seem fair you have to go through this so soon. Im so sorry. Hugs...and Lance sends lots of corgi lickers.

Hope your knee is feeling better soon.

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