Yesterday was not a good day, mostly because a great number of things combined to throw me into a sort of funk and cause the managing of my grief to do a tail-spin. Wednesdays are my wife's long days. She goes directly from school to church, where she is the choir director and organist, and doesn't get home until about 8:45 p.m. My allergies and sinuses have been giving me fits, so the day started off badly. On those long Wednesdays, Wink and I conversed (well, I conversed and he listened) all day, as we did every day. Since I was on a downward spiral anyway, I remembered that it was two weeks ago that Wink came home for his final night with us. I decided to go grocery shopping in the late afternoon. Since my retirement I do all the cooking, cleaning, shopping, etc., to help out as much as possible. I sneezed all the way to the store, and while there I sneezed, had watery eyes, and had to blow my nose every 30 seconds! What was meant to be a diversion became a nightmare. I finally got finished and spent twenty minutes in the checkout lane. On the way home my mind alerted me that Wink was not there. The house would be dark, he would not meet me at the door, wiggling his butt and waiting for me to unpack the groceries to see if I brought him something. I got into the dark laundry room, then the dark kitchen, with the first armful of groceries. Then I lost it. I sat at the kitchen island in the dark and wept as hard as I had any time the past two weeks. When my wife got home, I had pretty much recovered, but had swollen eyes. She knew. I fixed her a glass of tea and we sat down together for a while. Naturally we talked about how much we missed Wink. We both shed some tears--me, for the second time. I keep either the tv playing during the day, or music. But the house is still quiet...too quiet. My wife says it's time for another puppy. We can have one mid-May and have spoken for it. It will never take Wink's place, but it will certainly help fill a void in our lives that happened when Wink left. And who knows, it may even enjoy listening to me ramble on all day!