I have to tell myself everyday that Milo is with us that I can't keep him. I can't love him totally. I can't afford another dog. I have to say this because I know how stupid and irrational I can be. I know that I would very well adopt him despite the financial aspect and just make it work.

But I can't allow myself to feel that way. I have to remind myself of the financial. I have to remind myself that our two dogs are not happy and are mopey because of the semi permanent addition to our pack. I hate it, I wish it could work out but so far I really don't think it ever will fully meld. It would be easier to add a puppy than to add an older dog.