teddy is in heaven now :'( <3

teddy bear is now in heaven with God and the angels as me and my husband weep because we miss him so much. his death was so tragic and happened so fast i fear i will never find peace with in my self as it feels as though i lost my child as me and teddy shared a very special bond with each other. what hurts the most is that today is his 2nd birthday :''( i had all his gifts ready and i was going to make today very special and at the end of the day i was going to make him a cake.

he died on Tuesday night and in a way i blame my self for what has happened because i made the decision to go out that night. right before we left we played tug of war for a bit and then played chase so he would be tired for that after noon. he had already has walk that day and i am at least thankful my husband was there so we all had one last walk together :'( right before i left i looked in his eyes and told him to be a good boy, i never knew that would be the last time i would ever look into his beautiful eyes again.

when we came home he didnt greet me at the door as he usually does. my heart sunk. he had gotten into the trash and got a corn dog bag over his head. his body was already stiff and he was so cold. his tongue was purple and the whites of his eyes were red and wide with panic. me and my husband cried while holding his little body asking God "why" as he was the most loving dog u would ever meet. so sweet and gentle. we called a friend to drive us to my work as they have a freezer for cremating dogs. it was the last place in the world i wanted to take him but i didnt know what else to do. at the clinc me and my husband held his body telling him what a great friend he was and that he was the best corgi anyone could ever ask for. we said are last good byes and petted him for the last time. the house just feels so empty now, i dont ever want to get up in the mornings now because he would always greet me with a waging nub and kisses just because his mama, me, was up.

i am thankful for the time God gave me with him as he truly was a blessing. i love him with all my heart and soul and its just so hard to think he died like that i couldnt be there for him :''( we had so many great memories together such as when we took our first walk together, teaching him his first trick, taking him home to see my family, and this year he learned how to swim. the bond we had was so deep i swear i could read his mind. i always knew how he was feeling. i would have taken a bullet for this dog if i had to i love him so much. he was always so trusting of me and knew i would take good care of him no matter what. i made sure he was on the best food, always had a variety of foods on his kibble, i brushed his teeth, every Sunday he got groomed and i ALWAYS made sure he got his walks and if it had rained the day before and i couldnt walk him i would take him to the field so he could run. he would chase that ball or stick and he would fly across the field and theres nothing in the world i loved more than making him happy. i always wanted to be sure he was comfortable so i used harnesses instead of collars.

he loved people and children so much that he always welcomed them and wanted to say hello. he was always so gentle to little children. if they wanted to pet him he would lay on his side and wait patiently until they were done. he was to most gentle and friendly dog i have ever known.

Teddy, me and papa miss u SO much that we cant even express it. when i get your ashes back they will always be in the family room and i will be sure to pray to ask how u are doing. i know u are in even greater hands but the pain in my heart still hurts. u were such a wonderful friend. if i was ever sad or sick u wouldnt leave my side for even a second because u wanted to be sure i was ok. i will really miss our cuddles on the couch in the after noons and how u would get so excited when i asked if u wanted "noms" or a treat and u would jump at my face and lick me. i will miss our afternoon walks as i know u enjoyed those. i will miss taking u to the field so u can chase that stick, theres nothing like watching a happy corgi fly across the field and running back with a happy look in your eyes. i will miss u always bringing us your rope toys to play with because u loved tug-or-war so much. i will miss u greeting me at the door, seeing u after a long day at work made everything better. i will miss u greeting me in the morning with your kisses to get me up.i loved looking into those beautiful eyes he had. dark blue in the middle and then they were light blue on the edges.

u were my best friend and if i could have one wish it would be that u could be here again. we love you so much little buddy. i will see u one day at the rainbow bridge

the petco pictures i posted about are the last photos i have of him. those were taken on sunday. please, i beg u, dont leave bags on the floor and when u throw them away cut them open to prevent this from happening to u.

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Permalink Reply by Rebecca Marie O'Bryan on November 28, 2011 at 11:26pm

thank you, its greatly appreciated :')

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Permalink Reply by Angela Kau-Forsberg on November 29, 2011 at 1:05am

I am so sorry for your loss. I don't know what to say. *hugs*

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Permalink Reply by Chelsea and Wyatt on November 29, 2011 at 2:29am

I'm so sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to you and your husband! Teddy was lucky to have such loving parents during his time here.

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Permalink Reply by Rebecca Marie O'Bryan on November 29, 2011 at 10:53am

thank you so much :')

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Permalink Reply by Sylvia & Timmy on November 29, 2011 at 1:31pm

Don't know what I can say. Soooo sorry for your loss. As others have said, I'm sure he's at the bridge, wearing a smile and his vest, waiting.

Hopefully, you'll forgive yourself and through your story, others will be more aware of the hazards WE ALL have in our homes.

"That'll do Teddy, that'll do"

Sylvia and Timmy

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Permalink Reply by Cecilia & Butters on November 29, 2011 at 3:59pm

I am so so sorry for your loss and my heart hurts for you and your husband. I just wanted to let you know that your story has touched all around the world. I'm in Germany now, and have spread your story everywhere I meet a dog lover. Everyone's heart aches for you and we all have gone home and taken a double look at our trash cans. Truthfully, I've never given a second thought to an item I've tossed in the trash. But now I take a few extra seconds to sort the trash and cut any bags. And everytime I do I think of Teddy. Thank you and thank you to Teddy, who through his short sweet life has taught us all a life lesson. RIP sweet boy. I hope with time your heart heals, and you find room for a new pup. I recently lost one of our family dogs to cancer, and the pain is still there everyday but the love and kisses from my other pooches help me get through the tough times. Everytime I go to put their leashes on, it just reminds me how much I miss my old sweet girl. I'm sure she's FRAPPING in heaven with Teddy. Lord knows, even though she was a sheltie she frapped just like a corgi.

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Permalink Reply by Bax & Zigs & Rosie on November 29, 2011 at 4:08pm

I am so very sorry for your loss. I remember when you joined mycorgi and seeing the first pictures of puppy Teddy (I have a close friend named Teddy, so his name always made me smile) and over time watching him grow into such a smart, beautiful dog. Teddy was very special and you shared such a strong friendship with him. I really enjoyed reading your updates on his therapy work and seeing your pictures. I found this poem awhile ago and even though it's about titling dogs for agility or obedience, "Therapy Dog" is a very important title too. I hope this poem brings you a little comfort.

Why Title a Dog?

A title is a tribute to the dog that bears it, a way to honor the dog, an ultimate memorial. It will remain in record and in memory for as long as anything in this world can remain. Few humans will do as well or better in that regard.

And though the dog itself doesn't know or care that its achievements have been noted, a title says many things in the world of humans, where such things count.

A title says your dog was intelligent and adaptable, and good-natured. It says that your dog loved you enough to do the things that please you, however crazy they may have sometimes seemed.

And a title says that you loved your dog, that you loved to spend time with it because it was a good dog, that you believed in it enough to give it yet another chance when it failed, and that, in the end, your faith was justified.

A title proves that your dog inspired you to that special relationship enjoyed by so few; that in a world of disposable creatures, this dog with a title was greatly loved, and loved greatly in return.

And when that dear short life is over, the title remains as a memorial of the finest kind, the best you can give to a deserving friend, volumes of pride in one small set of initials after the name.

A title earned is nothing less than love and respect, given and received, and permanently recorded.

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Permalink Reply by Terry S. on November 29, 2011 at 4:59pm

That is the saddest posting I have ever read. Go outside on the next clear night and pick out a star for Teddy. His spirit will help you pick out just the right one.