First off, I want to thank everyone for their support and advice, it really helped to know that everyone went through the same thing. this is another long one but i hope you read it because i could still use some support! Ravioli did better yesterday after my first post and he seems like he's opening up to us a little bit. he seems to be eating normally now whenever i give him food and isn't as mopey--he seems to explore more when we're just sitting on the couch instead of laying around like a lump. i took everyone's advice with the leash and walking with treats. he's doing better with that now that he has an incentive =P
i do have a question. every now and then, but not too often, he'll make this kind of cough/hacking sound. it will just happen once. it sort of sounds like what a cat sounds like when they're about to harf a hairball. it concerns me because it doesn't exactly sound very good.. is this what a reverse sneeze is? i've never heard one. this morning when i took him out of his crate there was a little white-ish loogey looking thing about the size of a quarter in his crate. it sort of looked like what a jellyfish looks like. where did it come from? it obviously wasn't poop. did he hack it up? i do know that he likes to lick the rug a lot until he forms a hairball and tries to eat it. i'm quick to pull it out of his mouth but who knows if he's eaten some when i wasn't paying attention.
let's talk about crate progress. last night i put a towel over the sides of his crate (by the way, should i just put it over the sides, or should i try to cover the front door to the crate too?) and he didn't bark nearly as long this time before being quiet. what DID make me very upset though, is what happened this morning. so around 8ish i woke up and was just lying in bed for a little bit trying to summon the energy to get up and let ravioli out, and RIGHT as i pushed the covers off to get up, he started barking and whining in his crate! what?! why! and he keeps barking and barking and barking and barking! i was JUST about to let him out!!!! i was so upset because if he had just stayed quiet for one more minute i could have let him out, but instead since he started barking i had to wait it out until he was quiet. and of course afterwards i had to take him outside and i ended up being late for class because i had to wait longer for him to stop barking. i really wasn't very pleased with him. what made him start barking like that in the morning?! he isn't in the same room as me so it's not like he could see i was awake. when i took him out he did go to the bathroom. how can i tell if he is barking because he wants out or if he is barking because he needs to use the bathroom? i was kind of having an internal battle of what i should do (wait or let him out) because i couldn't tell if he was just being whiney or if he really needed to use the bathroom.
now here is where i need some more support. i'm still feeling very overwhelmed and worried. not so much about him being depressed but worrying about him and what he's doing in general. it's like i can't relax because i'm constantly thinking about "where is he? what is he doing? what if he's eating something over there and i can't see him?" like last night after work for example. when i come back from work it's usually after 9pm and i just like to relax and watch some tv. i can't fully relax because my mind is consumed by worrying about what he's doing and if he's ok and wondering if he's getting himself into trouble. the only time i've felt peace of mind is when i was at work yesterday because i knew he was safe in his crate. did anyone else experience this constant worry? i really feel like it consumes me and it stresses me out. i used to get these nervous stomach cramps before i ran a race in cross country and track and now whenever i think about ravioli (which is literally all the time) i get nervous stomach cramps. don't get me wrong, i put on a happy face in front of him, but the worry and cramps have me on the verge of tears all the time. normally when i'm stressed out i can take a shower and feel better, but even now when i take a shower i'm constantly thinking "i wonder if he's ok in my room.. i hope he's not getting himself into trouble.." obviously i can't crate him every time i take a shower, that's just ridiculous. right now i just have him in a barricaded section of my room. like this morning after my class i just wanted to take a little nap. i knew he would start barking again if i put him in the crate so i had him in the "safe space" in my room, but i couldn't even sleep and when i did i would wake up 20 minutes later with worry. every little noise i heard my eyes would shoot open and i would look at him to make sure he wasn't getting into trouble. yesterday i left him there for an hour while i went to class and i came back and he had found a piece of paper (i dont even know from where!) and had torn it to shreds. after taking a shower today, i went into my room and he had somehow gotten to the other side of the barrier! he was on the opposite side of the room that i had blocked him off from! HOW ON EARTH DID HE DO THAT?! i couldn't figure out how he got over there! the fact that my "safe space" is turning out no to be so "safe" is really contributing to my constant worry. my friend who was supposed to lend me her xpen (which was SUPPOSED to be his safe space..) said that it's locked in storage and she can't find the key.. -_- my boyfriend is going to his parent's house today to look for the gate they used to use for their dog. at least this way i can gate him off in the kitchen where i know there won't be anything for him to chew on.
anyway, this post is getting long. did anyone else feel this constant worry all the time? how did you deal with it? i feel more stressed out than i think i should be.. the thing is i thought i had thoroughly prepared myself, but this is the one thing i didn't know would happen! i don't recall reading anything about being worried and stressed out all the time when he's a puppy! i really hope you guys have some supportive words, i know you will!