I don't even know how to describe how empty I feel. I came home from work to find my baby Murphy (4 years old.. just described in a forum as my heart baby) had suffocated in an empty bag of Doritos.. his favorite snack. A careless item left out while we were gone.

It's been about 4 hours.. and the shock and disbelief are blocking the way of grieving. How could this HAPPEN? We just moved to our new house in December and hadn't gotten a chance to formally introduce ourselves to the neighbors with a small farm, but after I discovered him, I ran over for help and they came with a stethoscope and went to do a thorough check... something I just couldn't do. They were so kind and helpful and welcoming. It was also good them coming from a farm, dealing with this stuff every once in a while, and them knowing just what to do. What a way to meet the neighbors, huh?

We haven't even gotten a chance to bury him yet... my boyfriend had to finish his day of work :-( and I feel like it's too soon to be talking about it, but even tho I don't actually know any of you guys, the stories and support have kept me logging on every day for updates and posts. I hope that none of you have to experience this anytime soon, because I now know what It's like to have a broken heart.


Some (but not all) of the things I love and remember about Murphy:

*the way he would lick the condensation off the glass of whatever I was drinking
*how great of a snuggler he was
*how he would sneeze at least twice if he laid on his back
*how if he gave me a kiss on the lips after I put on chapstick he would do a smacking gesture with his mouth (haha that might be weird)
*how we would snuggle and out of nowhere he would pivot and stick his furry butt where his head once was
*his nicknames: pig, meesto, neesto
*how he seemed to get his belly muddy every time we went outside and came right into the mud room and laid on his back to get towelled off... because "scratchin the chest... it feels the best!"
*how he would "chase" Maya... she was sooo much faster, so he would cut her off in a herding gesture
*the way he chased a laser pointer: always a millimeter away and charging like a bull
*never missing a snowball
*his first big snow.. running in the trench made by big brother Moses
*the way he used to grunt like a pig as a puppy (hence his nickname)
*how he faked a hurt leg on a walk so I would run 2 miles back to get the car and pick him and the other dogs and my mom up... so he wouldn't have to walk back! (He ran alllll around when we got home... no pain! Just pranks!)
*how I could set a clock by his whine... 5:59pm.. dinner time at 6!
*how during fetch he would bring the ball back 90% of the way and then lay down with it and smile
*him jumping for sticks in the air
*the white spot on his forehead where I told him "an angel kissed him"
*how he could hold his ground on a tug match with our Newfoundland mix
*how photogenic he was and LOVED to be photographed
*our matching Halloween outfits
*his business tie
*how MUCH he loved squeaker toys
*how much he meant to me

There is so much more.. but I cannot finish. Cherish your furbabies and squeeze them a little tighter tonight. Tell them how much you love them every time you leave (I'm so glad I did) and never take anything for granted.

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Comment by Randy DeJaynes on May 23, 2012 at 8:14pm

Miranda: I am so sorry for your loss! I still feel a pang of pain when I think of Stinky WInk, and it has been almost four months. We are never ready to lose them-especially so tragically! Hang in there. The pain will ease, but it will never go away. Keep remembering the things you loved about beloved Murphy. I'm sure that Murphy, Teddy, Stinky Wink, and all the other precious Corgis are running together at the Rainbow Bridge. Puppy breath kisses from Huey and Taffy!

Comment by Chelsea, Dan, and Wyatt on April 12, 2012 at 10:29am

I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. He sounds like a wonderful boy who was deeply cherished. 

Comment by Natalia & Miles on April 7, 2012 at 12:26pm

Oh wow ... so sorry for your loss. My heart is aching for you............but what beautiful words!

Comment by Judith Andre on April 4, 2012 at 11:55pm

I don't even know what to say.  This is so sad.  Murray and I are very sorry.

Comment by Rebecca on April 4, 2012 at 8:59pm

Miranda, i am so so sorry this happened to your sweet Murphy. We are all shedding tears of sorrow for you and Murphy. You have so many favorite memories of Murphy. Hold them dear to you forever, as he will forever be in your heart. Lots of corgi prayers and hugs your way.

Comment by Gabi Walker on April 4, 2012 at 3:58pm

So sorry for your loss. God bless his soul.

Comment by Alison Prasavath on April 4, 2012 at 3:20pm

Tears are running down my cheeks. Ever since poor Teddy past away this same way, I've been cutting up all plastic bags...not just bags that had food in them. I've gone through our garbage can cutting them up just to play it safe. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Sending prayers and corgi kisses your way.

Comment by Elisabeth Spector on April 4, 2012 at 2:23pm

I'm SO, SO sorry about your sweet Murphy boy.  I cried reading this, thinking of Murphy and Teddy and the others who have died this way.  Your list of favorite thing about Murphy had me smiling, though (at least on the inside) through my tears...he sounds like such a typical corgi, but with his own special quirks and funny antics.  My favorite was the story about when he faked a hurt leg.  I would never have believed that before I owned a corgi, but I do now!  And the chapstick story was very sweet, not weird to me. :-)  I'm so terribly sorry your time together was short, but I'm sure Murphy had the fullest, happiest life one could ever imagine.  Just as I did after Teddy's death in November, I'm going to re-double my efforts to remind all of my other dog-owning friends about food bags.  I'm sure Murphy's story will save at least one other dog.  Hang in there, and please keep us updated about how you are doing.  Sending hugs your way....

Comment by Caryl on April 4, 2012 at 12:50pm

Oh Miranda, I am crying here for your loss. I am so very sorry. All of the Corgi Nation mourns with you. OXOXOXOX Caryl, Hunter, Pippin, and Tanner

 

Comment by JENNY & COBY on April 4, 2012 at 12:22pm

so sorry for your loss....  uhhhhh.......  sad..

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