I lost mine suddenly to liver cancer 3 months ago, and I know you are grieving beyond words. Back then I couldn't imagine life without my little Yewbee, either. But I can tell you today, it is possible. The gnawing ache and void in your heart will eventually start to subside, but don't be afraid to cry hard and long.
Just try to remember that Almighty God, the Creator of all life, loves you and little Tootsie, and that she is alive right now in His presence. He offers His peace and Presence to you in your grief. I hope you reach out to Him - He's already reaching out to you.
Your post made me choke on my coffee!! I cannot believe how horrible this is for you. Our prayers are with you and your family. I am so sorry!
Oh I am so sorry to hear about Tootsie. How terrible for you both....Prayers!