Skittles <3 RIP
Today, Skiski, Ziggy's kitty cat brother, made his way over rainbow bridge with the help of some very nice vets.
The problems started showing themselves the day before yesterday, and we got him to the vet as soon as we could. After grabbing Skittles' tummy, he let out a loud shreik and the vet told me, "I'm going to be blunt with you, very blunt, he needs to be put down." and that was it.
I regret losing him. He was my best friend. He nursed my ear lobe as a kitten. He would wash tears of my face with his rough, pink tongue. We would talk to one another, and for once, I wasn't worried about what others thought of me for doing something out of the norm (yes, I would meow back and forth with him for ten minutes at a whack!) He would pounce on and hug my legs, sit outside the bathroom door and meow for attention to annoy me, only to prance away like a princess when I was out.
I regret not giving him tuna before heading to the vet. I regret keeping him indoors for his last while of life. I hadn't meant to. I had expected for him to be around for years to come--he wasn't even three yet! I would have just let him out if I had known. I regret not paying more attention to him, not spoiling him more, not giving him the belly rubs he adored before it was too late. I regret a lot of things, but I hope one day I can come to terms with them, that I won't always feel guilty, I don't think Skiski would have wanted that.
I stayed with him while they put him to sleep. It was quick, like the vet promised. Thirty seconds tops, is what he said. I don't think it was even close to that long. It didn't feel like it. He was gone quickly, the vet gave me a slight side hug, apologized and told us to stay as long as we wanted. We sat there petting him for a good minute before it actually struck me as this was it. He's GONE. I still feel extremely sick. But we still stayed and I pet him until his paws were cold. Kissed him on the head, took the fur that had been shaven off of him, and we left.
My grandfather had driven us there, and I cried about halfway home before he couldn't take it anymore (kinda comical how uncomfortable he is with emotions) and took it upon himself to bring up politics. Yes, politics. But it was actually nice, it helped take my mind off of it some.
Right now I feel like I can't handle this. I feel like it can't be real, I just want to wake up and know that it was all a bad dream, and Skiski is curled up next to Ziggy at the foot of the bed. He was a bit like therapy for me. My grandparents had always tried to get me in it while I was little, and I never accepted. Then there was Skiski, and I could talk to him without judgement, I could cuddle him and not feel self conscious, and he always wanted to be with me. He meant much more to me than a pet. I hope that somehow, some way, I do get to see him again someday.
I love you Skittles. I wish it had been me rather than you, you mean the world to me and I'll never, not for one second forget you. I've never met a cat as amazing and lovable as you.
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Comment by Edward and Gemima on May 8, 2012 at 8:54pm
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So Sorry Kymii and Ziggy, I have been there with my old friend Cooper and I know how difficult it truly is. I am sending you healing prayers and thoughts. Oh and Skittles wouldn't wan't you to have regrets.. he is getting plenty of Tuna and outside time and everything you ever would want for your precious friend
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Comment by Cindi & Twinkie on May 8, 2012 at 7:28pm
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I am sorry that you lost your sweet kitty today. Please love your other pets even more so you never have to have another regret. God bless.
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Comment by Ludi on May 8, 2012 at 7:23pm
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What an unfortunate turn of events. I hope you and Ziggy will be okay.
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Comment by Donna and Lilly on May 8, 2012 at 7:23pm
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Lilly and I are so sorry for your loss...
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Comment by Laura and Tommy Jefferson on May 8, 2012 at 6:51pm
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I'm so sorry, Kymii! RIP, Skittles :(
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Comment by Melissa and Franklin! on May 8, 2012 at 6:30pm
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I'm so sorry for your loss. Maybe Ziggy was brought into your life to help comfort you during this time. He will be there for you to hug and provide a nice fuzzy neck to cry into. Skittles knew you loved him.
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Comment by Lemmy Winks on May 8, 2012 at 6:26pm
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You gave him the best life he could of asked for! You have nothing to regret!
So sorry for your loss; one day at a time.
Best wishes. *hug*
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Comment by Sam Tsang on May 8, 2012 at 5:48pm
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I'm sorry for your loss Kym, it must have been very very difficult :(
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Comment by Teresa Gilpin on May 8, 2012 at 4:53pm
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I loved the pictures of Skiski. He was a beautiful cat, and I am sure a great friend. I am so sorry for your sudden and painful loss.
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Comment by Bev Levy on May 8, 2012 at 4:42pm
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A wonderful tribute to your furry friend. He has lots of great company over the bridge!
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